There are things a person should do a certain way. I am not that person. If it’s going to be hard, it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever do. If you want it to be sad, the saddest. I don’t do anything half-assed. I’d rather feel every feeling, every way and be left with nothing, than try and forget. These things happen on purpose, whether we expect it or not, and why not live as much as possible and feel as much as possible before the inevitable, long, sleep.